Contrivance

Explaining myself to myself

The way my consciousness has been and is conditioned is to assume that nearly all knowledge reflects the will of ‘hidden hands’. It started with the JFK murder, then on to evolution and the big bang. To my young mind these things, in addition to the nightly news, seemed like contrivances designed to get us to think in a certain way, rather than to help us to actually think.

My coping strategy was to read old books and compare them to the new books on a particular subject to see how rhetoric got refined. It was kind of sad really to see a bit of how the sausage gets made. An interim conclusion was that as long as we act like farm animals, we will get treated like that. Later conclusions have to do with how to become more human and less a profit center for the farmer. The ten year reading obsession included every ‘spiritual’ tradition out there, anthropological not ‘seeker’ interest. Most of it, elitist bullshit in my opinion. I do like Gurdjieff a bit, he is good on using discomfort to grow. And there is no ‘enlightenment’ , as the choice to respond to any situation, either consciously or unconsciously happens in every given moment. Pro tip here; That sensation that you are special, that comes from our Creator, that sensation that you are more special than others, that comes from the Devil, many times via Brit intelligence operations. Another thing that bothers me in regard to ‘spirituality’ is the tendency to devalue the physical. My Lord, it’s where we live and the denigration seems like a part of the mind fuck we participate in.

I have always had a sizeable reactive mind element to tame and deal with. My way involves trying to balance order and liberty, respect for others, acceptance, don’t take things personally, etc. And stay somewhat busy so as to brood less and counter a lazy streak.

To my mind, knowledge based on false facts and premises have seeped very deeply into the human psyche. Many join the circular firing squad debating false facts of events and history without examining the premise that make the false facts seem plausible. Peak oil ideas support scarcity modeling because, you know there is only so much decomposing stuff from long ago. Given my opinions on so many subjects, there is plenty of room to offend pretty much anybody. Opinions are expressed in a guarded way so folk know of them while making it clear that I do not care to argue about them. I am happy to talk or elaborate, but most folk do not care to have their world views undermined so mostly I stay silent and wait for times to change.

My wife is a regular well educated normal person, well conditioned by general dominant narratives, and a useful barometer for how far I can extend my questioning attitude and/or novel assertions and speculations before insecurity creates a shut down situation. Sure, things got a little touchy at the beginning of the recent shit show, but my whole mental life has always been a challenge to orthodoxy, so no big change there. An older woman at a visit after a new neighbor get together asked me; How can you think the way you do? I responded, because I have no concern about what other people think of me. That is not totally true, but it fit the situation.

My aspiration is to put word sequences together that create engagement rather than resistance. An effort with a spotty record at best, but at least it keeps an introspective personality motivated to try to reach out. Trouble is, one creates engagement by talking in terms of what someone is interested in or already knowledgeable about, and resistance if one questions those terms and the knowledge produced. Folk may say they are being rational, but existing belief and bias will often trump rationality.

I used to frequent a site called Rigorous Intuition, as a news filter and a place where some sharp folk commented on any given news or conspiracy. Folk there claimed to value less partisan attitudes but it was clear over time that most posters had hard left attitudes. I maintained that ideas are something you have while ideology is something that has you. The bully crowd said I was a ‘right winger’. One sharp fellow had it in for me from the start, as early on I had asserted that intellectuals are most addicted to the dominant narrative because they did the most to create it. He and some other well educated folk helped provide the resistance that encouraged me to put better shape to my assertions.

I tried to observe more and keep the post count down as I was a ‘low status’ poster. I might think something witty was said and the thread was just killed. It was useful to observe folks limits and commitments to various ideas, interpretation of events, or notable people. One limit hit with Jack, the aforementioned de-facto moderator, was to connect the coming on line of 5G with the beginning of covid shit show. It was only a suggestion, given substance by the reaction. Electrical fields do affect human body’s so why the outraged defensive response? The final limit was hit when a interview was shown of the guy that headed up the Reese commission inquiry into foundations. It’s OK for a low status poster to say that institutions live to create problems not to solve them, but it is not OK to bring the receipts.

Here is a thread from RI, to get a flavor of the place.

rigorousintuition.ca • View topic - US Government rules on Gender Identity

The site is pretty dead now, dying all the while, which is befitting in this death based culture. I was happy to be banned although I did nothing that was ban worthy. It was a good experience, being circumspect within a sphere that was quick to slap a bad label on outlier thinking yet had little problem with tech, foundations, NGO’s, pharma, or big problems that require large amounts of govt. money. (Apparently it grows on trees.) I think the old posters no longer go there because most all took the injections and do not want to admit that they were/are being played for dupes. Humans can be impressively smart in one manner and impressively dumb in another. I have my share of dumb moments and that does not mean I am a bad person, so surely the idea can be extended to others. It’s the old Christian thing of hate the sin, not the sinner. I did find it ironic that many ‘rebels’ could be such efficient dominant narrative enforcers. The real rebels did fine, they just had to be more sharp.

I was amused by the news that LLM’s have a hard time distinguishing between facts and beliefs. It’s no wonder given humans long history of presenting beliefs as being verified facts. Now ascendant are the beliefs of perfect psychopaths with Malthusian, eugenicist notions that there are too many people. From my vantage point nearly everything I have ever encountered have elements of contrivance, that is; something being presented differently than it actually is. By doing this folk think they are gaining a necessary advantage but I think it normalizes lying. Of course some contrivances are positive and works of art where the intent is to reveal rather than to cover up. But for the most part they are attempts by power to impose expressions of being on the general population that they would not naturally choose for themselves.

Being that the prime directive of power is to maintain social control, why would the prime directive of AI be any different? It does not require much in the way of hard control, all that is needed is to flood us with fear and inverted forms of truth that swamp us with bullshit. A example might be the AI twisting Alan Watts or other wise guys in ways that suggests YOU are or about to be awakened. Material to stroke your ego. I am a meat eater, so was encouraged by the carnivore diet business. Then thought a bit and decided that I am thankful for all food I get to eat, and because it’s a social thing I am happy to eat what is served even if it’s not my ‘favorite’ thing. Anyway, I have always eaten few carbs and little sugar and that is good enough for me. The evidence of an inverted truth is it’s sudden appearance on the scene. The gluten thing also, scripted by cover-up artists.

I went to a Veterans for Peace show last night. This is my community and I love them dearly, however, I do see inconsistency between the rhetoric, beliefs and actions. It’s a proper start to sing peace begins with me. But where is ones peace when a macro struggle is going on where socialism and capitalism compete for the stage. They are symptoms of a dualistic mindset where both seek control over objects as their measure of success. The folk in the all white crowd, for the most part, support the soft racism of DEI, (you need my ‘help’ to make it). Believe in AGW, a bullshit Club of Rome, Maurice Strong, billionaire production that requires more resource extraction, taxes and raises the cost of entry for new ‘players’. Most also support Trans rights and Govt.requiring certain injections to share in society. This the new colonialism and leverage to control poor countries and people. There will be no peace as long as we believe in bullshit lies. The lies create internal dissonance where the conscious mind works all the harder to be right and righteous (and gain social status), while the sub-conscious element takes notice but is told to shut up. Humans do have the tools to move forward in more positive ways, but have a ways to go before we recognize what our tools are and how to use them.

I am stubborn, more stubborn than all the fake reality productions put together. I may well fail, but I will keep trying.

Thanks for reading.