Move along now....

nothing to see here.

I am one of those people that thinks that suffering is needed to grow. Sure, growth happens also without it, but it gets amped up with it. So Utopian ideas or ideals hold no interest for me. People living with a better recognition of their dignity and how to assert it bit more would be nice. Given that passivity allows others to assert their will on us, quite possibly not to our benefit.

For every one of us, when we move forward and attempt to do something, we face limitations and roadblocks. It may be a complex task, stressed interactions, more education needed, material failure, etc. My brother and I took a 12 hour trip, one way, to pick up a travel trailer. He is the sibling, one of nine that I see more often than the rest. He is outwardly harsh yet inwardly kind, doing favors for family and other poor people anytime he can. Our minds function quite differently. He did car mechanic work and is methodical in his process. I did house remodel work and worked on instinct. His way takes care of details better but takes more time to execute. My way can fly but can create backup situations when mistakes are made. This way works well for me but I do not recommend it for many folk.

The contrast played out during our 24 hour road trip in ways that were of help to both of us, even while being unpleasant at times. My brothers basic rhetorical tool is sarcasm. I do not do sarcasm, except for in ways that most folk do not notice. His is often used to find fault, place blame or assert another persons ignorance, or to have a reason to use his harsh loud voice. I do not respond well to these kinds of things yet do accept the challenge of learning to respond better. I am trying to calm my loud voice while he seems to enjoy getting more loud.

Being a mechanic, my brothers services were invaluable for insuring the safety and completion of the trip. Maybe it’s a mechanic thing,but he see’s problems everywhere. Some are there, but many more are potential and/or not really there. He uses hypotheticals to sort out possibilities but sometimes sticks with a false premise to support prior verbiage or thoughts. He says the tow vehicle is not large enough, I say it’s AWD and rated to tow this weight. Oh, why didn’t you say that before. Because it’s a tow vehicle I assumed that you would know that I would only look for an AWD version. He was finally convinced when he had a half hour conversation with a rest stop maintenance man at 3:00 AM who assured him that our vehicle could handle the proposed load just fine.

He uses a lot of words while I strive to use as few as possible. It was a good thing he brought his ear thingies so my silence could be isolated from his sounds. After getting to the pick-up site we found need for a trip to the hwd. store for a few items. The owner had given directions and the interstate and a lake ran parallel running north and south. I knew how to double back so as to miss the crowded tourist town, but the google map said otherwise or was not getting reception, producing a comedy of uselessness. After more driving to get ‘signal’ I indicated that wasting time was unpleasant and that we need to go ‘that way’ to get to the store. It was an easy call and I did not understand my brothers need to rely on a google that was not even working.

The trip home involved more verbiage than I care to hear so I suggested that brother should get a job as a govt. propagandist, given that he repeats the same thing until the audience submits. He continues... Yep keep going, I still have not been convinced.

My brother is not alone. The way I see it, most everybody is pushing their book. A compilation of reasons for the noises in their heads. My own noises, this week, center around sympathy and lack thereof. Repeating patterns create repeating circumstances. On one hand, external forces can be so dominant in circumstance creation, that one will tend to have sympathy for the hapless participant. On the other hand, the lack of development of internal force, to counter or balance the external drivers, might cause one to be less sympathetic toward some people.

"Every human being is a unique individual. Any attempt to replace the personal conscience by a collective conscience does violence to the individual and is the first step toward totalitarianism." -- Hermann Hesse - Author (1877-1962)

Each person will do best to develop their own personal conscience, sharp as the tip of a spear, to deflate the pretentious word bubbles of consensus thinking. The trick is to not be a repeater in a world of repetition. This writing style reflects an attempt to show and maybe develop an inner voice without trying to act as an external voice to your experience. We each have our own proper path for growth, different ways of sifting or valuing information. This can make for a vibrant world, or one of algorithmically isolated cults. Collective conscience tends to dominate in sub-groupings and likely represents the major fears of the group. Still, personal conscience is working in each of us as we make our daily decisions, therefor we do well to be clear on our criteria for making those decisions. Ideology and idealism’s, with their overarching claims that bypass individual thinking are guides for collective thinking and never provide the answers that personal conscience can provide.

Natural Law works well for the shaping of my internal voice, the golden rule basically, treat others as you would have them treat you. In my opinion, this opens one to connection and guidance from Source and greater confidence to express personal conscience. I have practiced hearing and expressing my internal voice for many decades and the external voice still dominates quite often. I cannot imagine life as a mashup of external voices, yet it seem that is what most folk settle for. Simple perhaps, but where is satisfaction? Sure, one might know more details, but how are they being used? If one is open, new details might provide for a breakthrough, but more often details are used to buttress existing pretenses.

The current human tendency is to focus on problems, which seem unending and worthy for focus. Maybe, but I prefer to identify yet never belabor individual problems. There are all to many and they are often distracting from solutions that are better found by having a distanced rather than emotional connection to a given problem. We have more problems than solutions because problems are profitable while solutions tend to lessen the profits. Will survival needs incentivize the solution end of things? I think so although the evidence of this is still sparse.

The frequencies we act at, limits the depths of our expressions and problems are lower frequency expressions than are solutions.

Thanks for reading.